“Because,” I said, “he’s still there.”
That is enough.
My son—the real one, the man with the deep voice—was quiet for a long time. Then he sat down next to me on the couch. He didn’t say anything. He just put his head on my shoulder, and for a moment, the cursor stopped hovering. The pixels blurred. And 2006 came back, not as a file, but as a heartbeat. my son 2006 ok.ru
He is not on Ok.ru anymore. That boy died—not tragically, but inevitably. He became a man. But I refuse to delete the page. Sometimes I write him messages there, knowing he will never see them. “Sasha, remember the green chair?” “Sasha, I made borscht today.” The messages sit in the outbox like prayers to a god who has changed his address. “Because,” I said, “he’s still there
I pointed to the grainy photo from 2006. The ice cream. The victory. The boy who still needed me to tie his shoes. He didn’t say anything