The taboo isn’t sex. Not yet. The taboo is the knowing . She knows she shouldn’t be here. He knows she knows. The waitress knows, and doesn’t care—she’s seen a hundred versions of this booth, this rain, this lie. The jukebox plays “Heart of Glass” for the third time, and the neon sign outside ( EAT ) flickers the T into an F every four seconds.
She is seventeen, sitting on the edge of a cracked vinyl booth in a diner that smells of coffee and old smoke. Outside, a Buick Skylark the color of rust idles in the rain. Her mother thinks she’s at the library, studying The Scarlet Letter . Instead, she is studying the curve of his knuckles as he lights a cigarette.
“How was school?”
She walks home under streetlights that buzz like flies. Her house is dark except for the kitchen light, where her father sits reading the newspaper, the headline announcing something about hostages and interest rates. He doesn’t look up.
Outside, a car passes. She listens for the Buick’s idle. Nothing.
The year turns. 1981 is coming. The eighties will harden into shoulder pads and cocaine and fear. But tonight, it is still 1980—a hinge, a crack in the door, a girl holding a match she hasn’t struck yet.
