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Last month, that changed. Last month, Tara and I finally asked him to take the mask off.

I laughed out of reflex. "You? You hate mess."

For years, that was our story. Dad as the Provider . Dad as the Fixer . Dad as the guy who showed up, threw money at the problem (or the carnival game), and drove us home in comfortable silence. tara and dad unmasked

Not a contractor. A painter. As in, canvases and watercolors and Parisian garrets.

That’s progress.

Tara flew in last weekend. Her mission wasn't to fix him. Her mission was to sit with him until the mask got too heavy to hold up.

Dad retired in June. For the first time in 45 years, he didn't have a briefcase to hide behind. And he started fading. Not dramatically—no crying or shouting. He just started sitting on the porch, staring at the hydrangeas, existing in a hollow version of himself. Last month, that changed

We’re not done. Tara went back to Portland. I’m still here, learning to ask better questions than "How was your day?" Yesterday, I asked, "What color do you feel like today?" He thought about it for a long time and said, "Grey. But with a little bit of orange."